~Laying Low~

Brah, been working lately, kinda keep me on the down low, keeps me from thinking a lot. But still I get bored at work. I really miss the good old days when I hang out with friends, but I feel like is coming to an end. Everyone is leaving and I feel like losing contact with most of them. I remeber the times when I got nothing to worry about cus I got great friends in my life but when the time comes, (college) it made me scared and worried. I don't know how to put it but is like losing not just your friends but family if they are very close. I feel so useless when im not with my friends. I kinda depen on them to keep me from stoppin along the way. Im alway scared to do things without my friends being there. It maybe sound fucking gay but I don't care~.~

So now what. I am a very independent person. From the family back ground I grow up from, others say I get soo much more freedom then them. But to be honest, I hate it. Having so much freedom is not that great when you can't share it with others. I am a person that don't like to me alone. I been alone almost my whole life until I met others. Others I can talk to and share with. Others I can open up to. At less they got a family that are there to care about them. I am always the only one out of others that don't get a phone call from their parents to check up on you. When I am out late with others they always complain *o man my parents are annoying* *o this o that*. But to tell you the turth, I get jealous. You don't see me picking up my phone from my parents. Is because there is no one there to care to even check up on me. So being independent or having soo much freedom really sucks when you are out and in your mind you know no one is there to care. I do get mad when im out when everyone need to be home, and im the only one out...feel like aloner....

Dats my life